The Gradual 151 Changes

 

The changes has been gradual,
From the kindest to biggest badass,
From the silent innocent girl,
To a walking loud disaster. 

Staying hidden in crowds, even if it stands for wrong,
To being odd one out and fighting for the truth,
The changes has been gradual,
From loving the late night parties,
To loving the comfort of bed,

From craving the attention of others,
To giving a middle finger salute to what others think,
To know oneself,
The changes has been gradual.

From slipping into body hugging dresses,                                                                                To working a baggy shirt and shredded jeans                                                                  
From chasing pretty boys,                                                                                                         To running after challenging dreams,                                                                                      
The change has been gradual.

From hating myself ,
To loving my stupid ways,
The changes have been gradual.
To believing in karma,From being an atheist,
To believing in all the reasonable part of dharma,

The changes have been gradual.
From finding excuses to escape from reality,
To accepting life, and fighting at my potential capacity                                               From starving my body for someone's attention,                                                               To learning to accept myself,                                                                                                  From forgetting my failures,                                                                                                   To previewing my mistakes,                                                                                                  

The change has been gradual.                                                                                                   
From running behind the flock,
To realising myself at my own thoughts,
From crying to loss of expectations.                                                                                      To expecting nothing at all,                                                                                                  The change has been gradual.

From being the half of me for me to see,
To being just me for others to see,
Crazy and weird me in every possible way.                                                                        But most importantly, just true me.                                                                                     

The changes has been gradual.
From living in the bad memories of the past,
To cherishing them, and enjoying the present,
From praying the worst of my haters,
To forgiving them and understanding there bad ways,

From immaturity, to wisdom,
The changes has been gradual  .                                                                                          From focusing more on my body curves,
To realizing the only curve I need is a smile,
From battling between heart and mind,
To being spontaneous, and developing a conscience of mind,
The changes has been gradual.

From barely surviving life, and 
criticizing the way it always came to me,
To living it fully, and setting myself free.
The changes has definitely been gradual.
I gradually learnt to live, laugh and love not for others but for myself                             The change has been real...

 Recently I came to observe how kind this change has been for me. Change has brought the best out of me for good or for the worse. A couple of years ago I was scared of anything new however now new seems rather like a thrilling rollacoster journey to me. I have started writing blogs as a naïve kid trying to find a voice in this world that forbids to listen to my point of view. I guess blogs definitely opened up a platform not only for me but many others who have similar thoughts and are living in this pardoned silence of emotions. Words have always been my true friends who I could totally express myself to. Yes with time my writing style and way of elaborating things improved. I look upon my past works and see how far I come. The change has definitely been a shadow on my journey not only in writing but in my personal life too.I would like to conclude by saying “Change is the law of the universe“. The one thing I learnt the most in couple of years is change. Sometimes it sneaks up on you. Sometimes it hits you over the head . Sometimes you turn around a corner to find you are different in a very small way. We have no control over this as it forces us to evolve accordingly. 

The world does not look like it quite used to. So where will I go from here. Still no idea .And for the first time in life its feels like a good thing. Change here I come waiting for your very next command….A girl writing this blog craves for your attention

This is my 151 blog… yes quite some blogs dear friends . I would like to extend my gratitude to all the support I got all the way. Thankyou so much if it was not for your constant support I would not have come all this way. I wanted this one to be different. I have payed my time well writing it down. Hope you enjoy reading it and do let me known your thoughts on what I should maybe write in future. Good day  

©G.V Raghavasree