Miss or Mrs

She…

Today I lost control. Every thing I kept buried inside rushed to the surface. I saw him again after 9 years. Over the years I learnt the art of fooling people with a smile as a proof that every thing was ok so one knew the reason.

I could never be more wrong. I thought I would smile and nod my way through it all. The bad parts of us stay with us. Killing the life out of us.

But why did he have to notice me at the moment of skipping glance. God he still makes me skip a heart beat. Secretly seeing your first crush after 9 years is somehow a weirdly pleasant and creepy.

He comes over to me. What do I do? shit!. Prithvi says,”Doctor how is my Grandmother”. For a moment I was lost.That patient in the ICU room was Prithivi’s Grandmother? I was shocked and lost for words.

The years have done justice to him. He is smoking hot now. His shoulders have broadened and his jaw line is a work of art with gorgeous trimmed beard. The perfect inverted triangle specimen of mankind that my eyes have ever laid eyes on. Could that black leather jacket coupled with black jeans and white shirt look any better. I regained my conscious from the wonderland of 15 year old girl hormones .

I guess he did not recognize me with my mask and yes over the years I changed and lost my baby fat. I said looking pleased into those daunting predator eyes, “Your grandmother’s bypass surgery is finished. We need to monitor her for few days and you will be able to see her after 1 hour. Get her these medicines it will help with the pain. I handed him a paper and turned around thanking god that he didn’t remember me.

My happiness was short lived and there out loud my crush calls out my name. Kyira Ramaswammy? I nervously turn around and looking at him shocked as I removed my mask.

Him….

How can I forget those two cups of hazel coffee brown eyes staring at me even after all these years. After I heard that Grandma is going to be fine and all that I could see and hear is her beautiful eyes and that husky voice of hers. She has changed so much. I can’t believe she lost her pounds. Dame her slow motion turn and finally I saw her. Traditional beauty Kyira is. The hallmark bindhi between her perfect nikey eyebrows and her pinkened cheeks and her long raven black hair tied in a braid like a snake down her spine. Her sun kissed dusky brown skin is radiating with her sweat rolling down her forehead.

She was a feast for my eyes. Never have I ever been so intrigued by a typical south beauty. I had to break this silence before she thinks I am being a pervert and weird. Finally words came into my mouth. Hi Kirya, can’t believe you dont remember me standing right in front of you. How have you been?

Her lips parted to a smile. She stood for few brief seconds observing me and said,” I think you are mistaken Mr Prithivi Williams. I identified you the moment my eyes saw you. You and I have a past and I am trying to be civil here!”. Oche that stung. I was the stud of my school and this girl was a naive back than but I knew she had a secret crush on me. Now I mean nothing to her. I opened my mouth , ” Hi would have been nice to start a conversation. Looks like you are still that over ambitious medical girl who can’t get over a me.. God Kiyra grow up.

She burted out,”Prithivi I wasted 7 god dame years to prove you wrong. I worked my ass off to prove to a dick guy that made fun of my dreams AKA YOU!!!. The worst thing of it all was I fell for you and I have been cursing myself for it and trying to turn my life around and guess what? You had to turn up to ruin it. Look my morals and ethics are above a simple greeting to a old enemy and sorry for wasting your royal highness time.”

She…

I can’t believe I just said that and I have definitely annoyed him. But it did bring out his cocky side and I am loving it how this soft pissed off gaze peels my skin right off and sends shivers of excitement down my spine. God he is a tempting snack. Oh boy this voice, his grin and his playboy character is intoxicating to a lost sole like myself.

I smiled back just to annoy him more. Look Prithivi I am a surgeon and I am expected to behave according to my cadar. I am sorry for behaving like this. Its been a long day and I need coffee in my system for my brain to start working. I am good thankyou and I hope you are doing well in your life?

He smiled back. I am good.I will forgive you if you let me treat you to a coffee. Come on we need to chat. For old times sake.

I had no option but to say yes. It would be awkward if I said no. I finally blurted it out ,” Let me go and get my things from my cabin. . ” I went to my cabin washed my hands and changed my overalls and took my handbag. Called the head nurse and told her I would be going out for a coffee and I would be back in 30 min.

I saw him waiting for me in the corridor. I said there is a cafe near by and we can have coffee there. its only a 5 min walk from here. He nodded and smiled back and told me to lead the way.

Him…

Why does this feel so new and different for me. I feel like a kid who just got caught by his mother for the trouble I have been up to. I dont know. But I am loving this aura of Kiyra. She is so different now perhaps the opposite of she ever was. I have been a douch bag to her for two years straight in school. I knew that she was a typical good girl who would rather suffer silently than say something rude out at the bully. I worth part was I was that bully who preyed on her innocence and I took advantage of the fact she fancied me. I made sure that french classes torture for her. I even got her to write my records. I feel disgusted to tell myself I was that guy. That just makes me more guilty.

She was silent all the way. Lost in her thought. I followed her and we were finally at the cafe. She ordered a mocha and I ordered a latte.

She looked at me and asked How are you Prithivi? Lets start this all again and lets be adults here.

I nodded and said with a smile,” I am doing well and I joined the marine .You Miss or Mrs?”

She gave her sly seducing smile and said,” Isn’t the prefix Doctor enough for you and is there a girl in your Romeo life?”

Me- I laughed as she is rubbing it in for payback and said.” I guess I can see that. You know what I mean. Yes I am in relationship for 2 years and I am planing putting a ring on it. She is a amazing girl. She changed everything about me”

Her- Oh wow congratulations, I am happy for you. Well I have not found anyone yet. With hospital shifts and patients I barely find time for myself and let alone the energy to invest in a relationship.

Me- Thank you. I guess it must be hard. I hope you make yourself available in the dating market out there. You have changed so much. For whats its worth I am glad that you proved me wrong. I have been nothing but a dick and bully to you back in school. I am sorry for that. Hahah Karma is a stone cold bitch. Now it has come to a full circle.

Her- she smiled and said, “Well what goes around comes around. If it weren’t for your words I would been elsewhere. I had to cope with it the hard way. Everything happens for a reason.It made me stronger and independent perhaps. I am happy that you have turned a new leaf. Well I am trilled to meet you again after so many years.

Me- I was shocked at her simple honesty . I smiled back. Her confidence made me smaller somehow. This women in front of me got some balls to stare right into me and feel overwhelmed at how much of a dick I was to her and to not show it. I made fun of her family, body shamed her and even at the extent of her dreams. She self made herself I can clearly see it.

I drank the coffee in utter silence and awkwardness.

After both of us completed our coffees we exchanged memories . Both of us laughed till our stomachs hurt.

She finally said Goodbye and that she has to go back to hospital.

She

I felt a bit lighter and somehow I have made amends with a part of myself. It doesn’t hurt so much now. I am finally over Prithivi. I have faced my worst nightmare with a smile. Life is definitely likes to keep me on my toes. I don’t how he felt. I don’t care for once and it feels dame good. I left the coffee shop with a smile plastered to my face.


The message behind this story is to never let others opinions weigh you down. Some dreams are worth the fight…

Success- Grinding your goals is the best revenge payback to all the people who underestimated you. Leave them wondering how you do it….

Β©G.V Raghavasree

56 Comments Add yours

  1. AnuRijo says:

    Waw..Realistic narrative..so you are poet and a writer and a story teller too..😊this time also a small coincidence in our post tile ..πŸ’‘..even though matter is different..

    Liked by 5 people

    1. Raj says:

      πŸ‘Œβ£οΈ

      Liked by 2 people

      1. dessertflower5 says:

        Thankyou Raj. 😊

        Like

    2. dessertflower5 says:

      Thankyou so much dear. Truly means a lot. You have been very observant. Deeply appreciate it. Hahah looks like both of us can mind read each other. Both our topics are so similar. I will check out your work😊❀

      Liked by 1 person

  2. Reblogged this on The Heart Attack Chronicles and commented:
    very nice scem. creative. and readable.

    Liked by 5 people

    1. dessertflower5 says:

      Thankyou so much for reblogging this. Gratitude for your kind words 😊

      Like

  3. Aaliyazoya says:

    Beautiful…… I want to reblog this πŸ™‚

    Liked by 4 people

    1. dessertflower5 says:

      Thankyou so much. I would simply love that as long as you link it back to my blog. Good day 😊

      Like

        1. dessertflower5 says:

          ❀

          Like

  4. Navin says:

    Great writing….poet, painter, writer & a story teller….that’s crazy amazing ✨

    Liked by 3 people

    1. dessertflower5 says:

      Thankyou so much Navin for your ever so kind words. Hahah also a final year dental student. Try my best. Glad to see you noticed. Have a great dayπŸ™‚πŸŒΈ

      Liked by 1 person

      1. Navin says:

        You’re welcome Raghavasree….Oh wow….you bring light & shine….with your shiny teeth…soon to be a dentist as well…impressive….Have a wonderful day ✨

        Liked by 1 person

        1. dessertflower5 says:

          Graduate Navin for dropping by with your ever so kind words. Brightened up my dayπŸ™‚βœŒ

          Liked by 1 person

          1. Navin says:

            That’s quite impressive! 😊✨

            Liked by 1 person

            1. dessertflower5 says:

              Thankyou Navin once again πŸ™‚

              Liked by 1 person

  5. I greatly enjoyed this πŸ˜€

    Liked by 3 people

    1. dessertflower5 says:

      Thankyou Ben. I am glad you didπŸ™‚

      Liked by 1 person

  6. This is good. Enjoyed it. πŸ˜„

    Liked by 2 people

    1. dessertflower5 says:

      Thankyou so much. I am glad that you didπŸ™‚

      Liked by 1 person

      1. Yes it was indeed. Keep up.

        Liked by 1 person

        1. dessertflower5 says:

          πŸ™‚

          Liked by 1 person

  7. It’s a beautiful story!
    I greatly enjoyed reading it

    Liked by 2 people

    1. dessertflower5 says:

      Thank you Luisa for dropping by. πŸ™‚

      Liked by 1 person

      1. ❀️ 🧑 πŸ’› πŸ’š πŸ’™ πŸ’œ

        Liked by 1 person

  8. dessertflower5 says:

    🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸

    Liked by 1 person

  9. This is so beautiful! I love it.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. dessertflower5 says:

      Thankyou so much dear ❀🌸

      Liked by 1 person

  10. Such beautiful story. Made my morning coffee worth. Love those last words – Leave them wondering how you do it. Good read!

    Liked by 1 person

    1. dessertflower5 says:

      Deeply appreciate your lovey comment. Looks like you found my favourite line. Have a great day ☺

      Like

  11. freetipscom says:

    A really good thought put across!✌

    Liked by 1 person

  12. dessertflower5 says:

    Thankyou so much πŸ™‚πŸŒΈ

    Like

  13. Nimish says:

    This is amazing ….
    As if it was my own story ….With the only difference my crush is not hot anymore…Preparing for UPSCπŸ˜…

    Amazingly done , missed ur Post’s

    Like

    1. dessertflower5 says:

      Thankyou so much pal. Means a lot.
      HAHAHA well there is always plenty of hot fish in water.(pun intended) πŸ™‚
      All the best for UPSC

      Like

  14. Joel Abakah says:

    I enjoyed the story so much. Kudos on your brilliant and intense use of imagery. I have a wild imagination so reading this was like a scene in a movie.

    People will comment about us no matter what. The bad comments just shouldn’t move us to the point of giving up on changing our life goals because of that. Like you said at the end, succeed and let them wonder with a simple how?
    πŸ’šβ€πŸ”₯

    Liked by 2 people

    1. dessertflower5 says:

      Awww Your kind words brightened up my day. Thankyou so much. Your words mean more than I can explain. Its always a pleasure reading your comments to my blog. Joel readers like you are hard to find. Have a blessed day πŸ™‚

      Liked by 1 person

      1. Joel Abakah says:

        You flatter me.
        Keep doing an amazing job friend!β€πŸ’š

        Anyways I’ve been having trouble receiving notifications of your posts. Please help if you can. Thanks😊

        Liked by 2 people

        1. dessertflower5 says:

          Hahha you deserve it.

          May I know what is the problem joel. If I can I am more than happy to help 😊

          Liked by 1 person

          1. Joel Abakah says:

            I don’t really know what the problem is exactly but I’m unable to receive notifications of your posts. It’s just a WP glitch I guessπŸ’”

            Liked by 1 person

            1. dessertflower5 says:

              Oh it sort of happens. If you would like to receive notification. When you comment at the bottom click on recieve notification or you can subscribe through mail. You will get to know when I post.

              Your recent poem I just read had me crying…. Such a emotional poem

              Liked by 1 person

              1. Joel Abakah says:

                Yes I’ll try that. Fingers crossed. WP can be stubborn sometimes.

                Aww… It’s nice though. Seeing how you connected with it. It touched me hard. Thanks for taking time to read, and for your kind admiration πŸ’šβ€

                Liked by 1 person

                1. dessertflower5 says:

                  You made it worth the read πŸ’š

                  Liked by 1 person

  15. Woowwww…soo lovelyyyyπŸ€—πŸ€—πŸ€—πŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œ

    Liked by 1 person

    1. dessertflower5 says:

      Thankyou so much:)

      Liked by 1 person

      1. Pleasure is all mineπŸ€ͺ❀❀

        Liked by 1 person

        1. dessertflower5 says:

          😊

          Liked by 1 person

  16. Superb πŸ‘πŸ»

    Liked by 1 person

    1. dessertflower5 says:

      Thankyou so much πŸ’ž

      Like

  17. HappySoul says:

    I read it through non-stop. Nice read 😊a message conveyed so well

    Liked by 1 person

  18. dessertflower5 says:

    Thank you so much. This really means a lot. πŸ™‚πŸ’•

    Liked by 1 person

  19. Alive In Coffin says:

    1. The best piece I read this week…

    2. This so relatable that I’m going to share it with my therapist so that she can get lost with such an artistic story you’ve scribbled…

    3. The way you described his reaction made me felt like I’m reading a New York Times best selling novel…

    Thanks for stumbling… Peace…

    Liked by 1 person

    1. dessertflower5 says:

      Thank you so much. Your kind words are the epitome of my day…
      I hope your therapist enjoys reading it as much as you did.
      My gratitude’s and have a great dayπŸ™‚

      Liked by 1 person

  20. So many ❀ moments when i found imagining all the faces that are past. Past !! Bhoot aise hee nahi Kehte Hain. Lovely Raga

    Liked by 2 people

    1. Thank you Narayan. Hahha lol a funny comparison on bhoot. Glad that you can connect to it. Good day😊

      Liked by 2 people

      1. πŸ™‚ Pleasure Raga

        Liked by 2 people

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s